I have become a new person

It has again been quite awhile since I've been on here, and many things have changed. 

I have had more major events happen in the last few months than the rest of my life as a whole.

To start, my life was changed forever when my dad passed away at the beginning of the summer. He wasn't even old, only 49, and cancer took him.

That changed me for good.

Despite that, countless fun, exciting things happened over summer. I saw Tribal Seeds and SOJA in concert. I saw a DCI show. I went on a 2 week road trip in which I saw Vegas, Yellowstone, Seattle, portland, and even attended the Reggae on the River festival.

The fun didn't stop when school started, if anything, it increased.

I have made so many new friends, party, and I even have a boyfriend too.

I refered to myself as a "recluse" in one of my previous posts. 

I am far from that now. 

I have done so many new things recently that I would never have imagined that I'd do.

Let's just say I am having a lot of fun, even though many of the things I am doing are not legal.. Well, in this state at least. (Good thing I'm moving to Washington in a year)

I'm definitely a very different person now, and also not the best role model, but hey I'm having fun.

What matters is that I can keep good grades and stay safe, which I am.. While having the time of my life.

Life is good.

2014 Update and Resolutions

This year, lots has happened and I apologize that I haven't been able to go on here hardly at all, but life is very busy lately.

Not too much has happened in the past few months. If you follow me on tumblr, you will know that I have changed very much in appearance.
I went from this in summer:

  To this now:

So yeah, I change A LOT.

I'm not super into New Year's Resolutions, but I think I have a few goals for this year.

1. To get my driver's license.
This will help me not only with getting from place to place, but it will give me more freedom and independence. It will also help my parents greatly, and I think I will get it by this summer hopefully.

2. To become a more outgoing person socially.
In the past few years I have been a total recluse and I don't want to be that kind of person. Lately I have also been getting over many of my insecurities and awkwardness. I hope to make more friends also.


3. I want to become more of a leader.
I feel like a natural leader in many situations, even though I don't actually act on my opinions or ideas a lot of the time.

4. I'd like to discover who I really am.
This goes along with the last two, but this is my last full year living with my parents, since I graduate in 2015. I want to build my beliefs and values and strengthen the ones I already have, becoming a sophisticated, independent, strong person.


So yeah, that's pretty much all I could come up with. Hope you weren't bored to death. I might make this a youtube video later on.
Also, I have made quite a few new videos on my youtube channel lately, so you can go check those out at:
https://www.youtube.com/user/AveryAnarchy666

Update on life

So, I haven't been on here in a long time, so I'm going to do a little update.

I turned 16! Yaaaaaaaaayyyyyy!!
I got a lot of stuff too, and I'm probably going to do a haul video eventually.

I started school again. I'm a junior this year.. Where has the time gone?
This is my hardest year because I'm taking 3 AP classes.
AP classes are college level, and give you college credit so you don't have to take them in college.
So, they're very difficult.

I've been very busy again, so I won't get to go on here very often.
I started this blog at the end of last school year, because I knew my summer was going to be uneventful.
Now that I have marching band, piano lessons, and a buttload of homework every day and weekends, I rarely have extra time for ANYTHING.
It does suck, but it will pay off in the end.

Lately I have been very into college, and been looking a lot.
It's my motivation for everything.
All this hard work will pay off in the end, and hopefully I can get into a good school.

Dubstep

So, dubstep is a very new genre in today's music. It is met by lots of controversy, of course, as any genre is. But it is a very futuristic type of music, that really shows that the future is here.

When one says dubstep, what usually comes to mind is Skrillex. He is probably one of the biggest dubstep artists today, in my opinion.
I actually really love Skrillex, surprisingly. People call me that as a kind of mean name because I have a side shave and wear glasses, so they associate that with Skrillex automatically. Which also shows how famous he is.

There are many other dubstep artists of course. For some reason, some very close-minded people have somehow gotten the impression that Skrillex is the ONLY dubstep there is. It confuses me as to how anyone could think that..

Dubstep is a genre that old people (a.k.a. parents) will not like. It is very fast, with random bleeps and wub-wubs everywhere. All computerized. There is usually no singing, but there is at times.
There is actually a video about how old people react when they hear dubstep for the first time.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WgII2gDY-Rw

Watch that, and you will know what I mean.


Other popular dubstep artists include Deadmau5. Though Deadmau5 is dubstep, his version isn't as crazy and wild as Skrillex. It's more dancey and has singing in pretty much every song.

Other good dubstep artists include: Rusko, Nero, Flux Pavilion, Kaskade, Gemini, Datsik, Emalkay, Foreign Beggars, and Excision. Just to name a few.

I don't listen to dubstep that much, but it's one of those things, if I didn't listen to so much metal, I'd listen to dubstep like 24/7.

So, with that being said, go listen to dubstep to your hearts content, it's awesome.

My Summer Challenge

So, I have decided that, I am going to challenge myself this summer.
I feel like summer should be a relaxing time to kind of let go of things you normally have during the year.

My challenge is going to include a few parts.

Level 1:
I shall wear no shape or form of makeup until the first day of school.

Level 2:
I will not drink one energy drink until the first day of school.

Level 3:
I will not straighten my hair until the first day of school.

Level 4:
Every day, I will wear one article of clothing that has no black in it.


So, as you go up the levels, it's adding on things. So, for example, if I was on Level 3, I wouldn't straighten my hair, no energy drinks, and no makeup.

What I'm going to do, is start off at Level 4. If I wear everything with something black, then I am out of Level 4, no excuses. And then I will be in Level 3, and so on.

The reason that I am doing this challenge, is because I think it will be good for me in a few different reasons.
I have really bad skin, and have more and more breakouts lately, so I think a LONG break from makeup is in order.
I'm really unhealthy, I drink energy drinks like every day, and the result is me feeling sick a lot. So, no energy drinks all summer.
The 'article of clothing with no black' is more of a thing for summer. Yes, I am still goth, I'm not leaving the subculture or anything like that. To me, this is something that will fuel my desire to dress goth. So that when I go back to school, I will be totally fired up to be the gothiest I can.
The hair straightening thing is because my hair is extremely damaged already from bleaching, that I just need to let it chill. I still will bleach it, but I just won't straighten it.

To be honest, I probably won't last very long. For sure, I think I will last through Level 2, but the others are really hard =(
I'll try my best though!

The Un-Goth Me

We all have different interests. There is no goth in the world that that is their whole life. Goths always have non-goth interests. There is no one where everything they do is goth. If someone tried doing that, I think they'd probably go crazy before they realized it's stupid.

So, I have many un-goth interests and things. So, I'll talk about some of that stuff.


I am a band geek. I love my school band, marching band, drum corps, orchestra... Anything like that. I play flute, percussion, and sax in my school ensembles. I'm also one the very elite musicians at my school.
I also play piano. Have been playing for a little over 10 years now. It's my life.


I love reading. I guess this could possibly be a goth thing, cause many goths love to read. And I do read lots of gothic literature.


I LOVE Lady Gaga. I understand that she's a mainstream artists, but that doesn't mean I can't like her! I love the music, and her physical appearance. She's just so wild, and the fact that she's so mainstream yet so "weird" as people might say, is the coolest thing ever to me. I love how she never looks the same. Every time you see her, she looks like a completely different person than at other times. That to me is super cool as well.


I adore theater. I do everything behind-the-scenes in my school's theater. And I really hope that it can be my future career. I'm planning to either major or minor in technical theater in college, haven'y quite decided. Because I want to major in music too, but then there's theater which I want as my career.. But then music.. My director always says that I can do them both, but idk.


You may think that my favorite color is black, but... you're right. My favorite color is in fact black. But, that's not just because I'm goth.. Black has been my favorite color since I was 10. My second favorite color is probably red. But I also LOVE rainbow. It's such a non-goth thing, but I love rainbows and rainbow colored things.
I also love cheetah print. Anything neon cheetah print, I love.



I am a total hippie. I grew up with reggae, and it's kinda in my genetics too. I love the beach, hate shoes, and have dreadlocks. I never shower, love marijuana, and don't even take care of myself enough. It's kinda funny. Also, I'm in the drumline at my high school, and we're basically just a bunch of hippies coming together and drumming. It's pretty rad.
Speaking of reggae, I'm going to see Ziggy Marley in a couple months, super pumped.


I listen to goth music, of course, but not all the time. Really, I don't listen to very much goth music at all.. The little that I do listen to is usually on the more industrial/EBM side of it. The genre I listen to the most is metalcore. Anything you'd classify as "hardcore." Bands I like include: Avenged Sevenfold, Bullet For My Valentine, All That Remains, Disturbed, Slipknot, Pierce The Veil, Five Finger Death Punch, Korn, Stone Sour, A Day To Remember, Woe Is Me, Northlane, Suicide Silence, Like Moths To Flames, Motionless In White, Chunk! No, Captain Chunk, Asking Alexandria, Carnifex... I could go on for hours, but those are the main bands I listen to. So, yes, I listen to goth music, but not primarily.


If I wasn't goth, I'd probably be a big mixture of things. I'd be a hippie as I am now for sure, and I'd be grunge with a touch of indie.
I listen to a TON of not goth music like metal and hardcore stuff. So, I'd be what the norm for one of the hardcore scene would dress as. The typical toms, skinny jeans, tattoos, piercings, stretched ears..
A little something like a mixture of these:

I'm not sure if this is a goth thing, but I am obsessed with Hitler. Like, I honestly don't know why, I just am. I have no reason, it's just the way he looks and how serious he seems.. idk I supposed because of his intensity. That's the word.
So, that's all for today.
Enjoy this picture of Hardcore Hitler!

The type of guys I like

When people say they have a "type,"... well I don't.
Honestly, some of the guys I've liked are on opposite sides of the spectrum.

For example, I'll like guys like this :

Or this:

And then I'll turn and be like, hey babe, to this:

Or even this:

Yeah, I'm weird, I know.
One of the things I've noticed is that for the most part, most of the guys that I like have to have long hair.
It's just a must have.


As for personality, it really doesn't matter. They just need to have good music and style taste.
I'd honestly prefer for them to be goth, or at least alternative, so that they'd be able to understand me more, but it's not a must-have trait.
As long as they let me wear their clothes, cuddle, and bring me food, they're perfect for me.
I also don't like when guys have super high morals, 'cause I feel like if I do the slightest rebellious thing, they'll be like "LJABFVJLHBFV!"
I'm okay with guys being innocent, though. Just not the high morals. Please. Thank you.


Well, yeah, now you know what type of guys I like.
On a less-weird note, I just got a haircut today =)

Awkward, I know...